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Tuesday, 08 July 2008

You

You, I wonder how you existed out of no where in my life. June was a terrible month and i don't even want to remember a bit of it. You existed when i am in my lowest point in life, and when nothing seems to be going right for me. Somehow you existed, brighten up every seconds of my life and indeed it was like a fairy tale. I keep telling myself that this is just a dream. A dream that is much longer than other dreams and some day i will have to wake up from the dream. I really hope that this dream is never gonna end. Thinking about you being the light of my days have really motivated every single moment of my life whether its with the family, work or others. A sweet smile will always be on my face each morning when i received your sms greeting me "morning sunshine". That's so sweet and so encouraging for a woman. Never in my life a guy treated me with all these kind of attention. For once, or at least for twice, i felt really loved. No matter its just a friend or who knows more than that, im indeed thankfull that you existed in my life. Fate always comes in a funny way. I actually know your family except you. Never talk to each other ever before but just a smile or a hi when we bump into each other in MSN or in the alley. I never thought that i will ever get to know you. Simply because you are a tall and not bad looking national volleyball player. What more to talk to you when i am so much shorter than you are. I hope that this fairytale will never end and will be a journey of knowing each other better. I couldnt ask for more as i have lost my faith in love..only stupid people like me would think that, one day a man will exist and he will love me and care for me as i am. And i in return, love him and care for him as he is. A best friend to me and also a shoulder to cry on during the hard times and during the good times, we cherish it together and walk on with laughter. Laughter, tolerance, understanding, joker and a faithfull man is every woman's dream. I just hope all these are not a joke or a bet. I really dont wanna be used and taken advantage at ever again. I couldnt take such treatment anymore..All i hope is that, fate is there, and fate decides what's best for me.

Monday, 17 March 2008

Sunny Monday :)

It was a sunny monday viewing from the 18th floor of Texchem in the boustead holding building :) Lunch time has just passed. My colleague and i are so lazy to continue working..:) But, work has to be done somehow. Here are some glimpse of the day at Texchem :)
great weekend!

First of all...i havent blog in ages..!!i was all stucked with work, work and work. Apart from that, i have been really partying with my colleagues. On friday, we went to this pub name 'Frenz'. Man, its an oldies pub..! hahaa...i think we were the youngest there but it was all fun. We played cards and had some drinks. And there, i got my first ever shot of tequila! damn i was all dizzy after that as i have drank few glasses of heiniken. The gang went for a second shot and me? nah..can't even go for it and if i do, i'll probably end up in an accident as i drove there on my own. Finally, the night is gone. The next day came and the next thing we do was bowling! :) well we played a couple of games and had a really really fun time laughing and teasing. After bowling, i went home to have dinner with my mum and then head back to the office to work till 12 am. Woke up this morning and watched formula 1 racing live on astro - Australian GP. Started of working again and got into office around 5.30pm. Went for indian vegetarian for dinner and chill for a while at the restaurant. Guess what's next? office again till 11 plus..gee im really tired. still dizzy from the tequila though but had fun and really keeping myself busy :) That's about it today.

Monday, 11 February 2008

Monday blue..

Why Working people hate Monday most??? Well, here's something to boost those with the Monday blues..something that i grab from the net :)
The first thought that popped into my mind was: "Thank God it's Monday!"
I was startled by my own thought. While the whole world is grumbling and groaning about Monday, unwilling to let go of lovely, lazy Sunday, here I was, chirping about the first working day of the week.
And why not? If it is Monday, it means the shops will be open, the government offices will function, the courier service will bring that much-awaited parcel. And life will move on full-speed. Isn't that cause for jubilation?
Contemporary man is completely sold to the idea of the weekend and, therefore, horrified by the idea of working seven days a week. People drag themselves through workdays so they can relax in the evenings. They endure the week so they can have the weekend.
They work through the year so that they can go on leave at the end of the year. If we stretch the logic a little further, they put up with life so that they can relax in death.
Instead of justifying the need for a holiday, let us look at the quality of our working life.
Perhaps some Osho insights can help change the way we work.
The basic question is, do you enjoy your work?
Do you work wishing you could do something else? Is your work a necessary evil -- to earn a living or to fulfil ambition?
1. What and how

What you do is not important, it is how you do it. Whatever you do, do it with deep alertness; then even small things become sacred. You can clean the floor like a robot; you have to clean it, so you clean it.
But it could have been a great experience; you missed it.
You cleaned the floor and that would have cleansed you. Clean the floor full of awareness; be luminous with awareness.
2. Remember yourself
One thing has to be a continuous thread: remember yourself.
While walking, say, "I am walking." While sitting, say, "I am sitting."
And feel the shift in your awareness. There will be a sudden spark.
3. Are you a perfectionist?

Beware! What counts is being total, not perfect. This brings out the best in you. The very idea of perfectionism drives people crazy.
The perfectionist is bound to be neurotic. S/he cannot enjoy life till s/he is perfect. And perfection never happens, it is not in the nature of things.
Life is imperfect. Only death is perfect. Totality is possible, perfection is not possible.
There is a huge difference between perfection and totality. Perfection is a goal for the future, totality is an experience now. If you can get into any act with your whole heart, you are total. Totality brings wholeness, health and sanity.
The perfectionist forgets about totality. There is a big gap between how s/he is and how s/he wants to be.
And, of course, change can't happen now, it is always tomorrow or the day after. So life is postponed.
These are small tools, but they will help you see the gap between workdays and holidays decreasing. You will eagerly wait for work to begin.
And then you'll also say: "Thank God it's Monday!"

Sunday, 10 February 2008

Dear diary,
Havent been writing here for quite sometime as i just dont knw what to write. Well, im gaining weight and i think cant loose weight that easily. ok just a little update on my self.
1. Physically - argh put on tonnes of weight ever since i finish university.
2. Emotionally - there's still ups and downs but it getting better as im living a life of who cares.
3. Technically - dunno in what sense?ahahah accounting sensee?
4. Practically - i think im practical and matured enough to handle difficult tasks.
5. Anger - a little improvement but still need further management.
6. Work - Enjoying heaps of it.
My vision for this new year is :-
" To Let Things happens, and Not to make Things happen."
My mission :-
- To learn more things from work
- To learn to control my emotions
- To put my best at work
- To be efficient
- To be patient
- To "slow to speak,but fast to listen"
My hope :-
- To love that special someone
- To hv a bright future
- To be healthy
- To love my parents more and more
- To be loved by you
- To receive flowers
- To have you by my side supporting my downturns and sharing my happiness
- To loose weight
- To be nice to everyone